An alien feeling

After the thrilling Portland expierience the come down was that there is no more S-K. I did have the straw to grasp that I was gonna see Janet with Quasi a week later. Now that week later has passed, and as good as it was seeing Quasi and chatting with Janet, thats it. I feel realy down and hollow today, stupid I know. The S-K board is still down, I fear it may never appear again. Sharing my pain and depression with other like minded obsessives is not available, so I feel quite alone. This is a feeling alien to me, and I don't know what to do with it. Writing it here may help, it may not, only the coming hours/days/months will tell. We'll see.