Calmness started to be rejected

This has been a long night (still is)
My first impression here is I must be at the New York show. I can get a flight ok £350 ish
but the show is sold out! E-Bay $250 f**kin c**ts. Ok with fan conections I may overcome that though it is a problem. Also I know the time off work is gonna be tricky. I'll pay someones overtime, f**k it.
How do you justify to people just how much a rock'n'roll band has moved you. I've seen 'em 5 times and twice I've cried they're that good.
I'm rambleing and I'm drunk (unusual for me these days)
Ok It's 04:20 am my alarm goes off in 2hrs 10mins, and I still have a glass of wine in my hand.